The only certainty is to love Christ more

If you are unsure about anything.
Come and love God more.
It is about the only thing I know that is definitely the right thing to do.
Otherwise I am clueless.

And if I come to love you more.
I pray for comfort and easiness.
Through trials I persevere.
Be nice to your servant though.

Happy Chapel Day

I was so happy today 

For two reasons:

1. So many people with same passion as me

It doesn't matter whether they are here for the music or the Author

They are here

And so are we

2.  I have an iPod full of new music

Love

It's like a gift

So I am extremely satisfied today

I am motivated to keep up my happy day

Just keep swimming swimming swimming

I think I can trust God in leading you.
Even when you are trying to hide, I know He will eventually find you.
But I thought maybe our passion are alike in a way like maybe we can conquer the world.
(metaphorically of course)
I mean eventually I am going to be gone.
I always think I'll end up somewhere else.
So in the midst of waiting, maybe I can be the influence I want to be.
So far, 7 years, I don't know if anyone noticed, appreciated, or were impacted by what I have been doing.
I mean the treasure is up above, right?
Still.
I guess.
Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming...

Blank

Blank

I can't explain what's happening.

My mind is awake, but my heart isn't.

I can't feel.

I am not referring to worship.

It's just that I can't think about person, place or thing right now.

I feel like I need to be somewhere else.

我的心臟要停止了啦

講, 不停,

做, 不停,

我的心臟要停止了啦!

The Perfect Strength among the Weak

I can't emphasize enough about how weak I am in the flesh,
yet how strong I am in the Spirit.

I can't emphasize enough about how messed up I am in life,
yet how I can do everything through the one who gives me strength.

At some point, I am going to have to stop myself.
But I don't know how.
If my mistake will cost a fortune.
Please stop me before the clock stop ticking.

I think I just died a million times tonight

How can this flood of negativity just overwhelm me in a matter of seconds?
I really should stand and fight it, but I think I just stood there--motionless.
What's wrong with me?
It's almost like I wanted to prove that I am worth something, so I wanted to give up and see what will come about.
What a rebellious child.
I guess I'll change my mind about giving up once I am done this blog.
But must I go through this every time.

Sorry, God.
But I absolutely can't give reason for my insanity.
That desperation inside of me is way too strong.
I want to see something come about.
Right now.
But I must deal with people and learn first.
Sorry, God.
But you do realize that desire is going to ridicule me in front of people.
And I cannot provide them with an explanation.

Is there something I should be learning here?
Other than the sound of "you are going about it wrong"?
What should I be listening to?

Too broken.
Can you give me a song?
I want a song.
It's fine if it's just to myself.
Can you sing to me?