You see. I am a very sincere person. When I say that I like to talk to you. I really mean it. You always get the first hand news. The problem is I can't tell if you are just being polite or that you actually care. It'd be nice I someone actually care. If it just out of manner, I am still grateful because at least I could pretend someone cares.
Today, I heard that my aunt passed away. When I think of Mommy, I feel sad for her. She is close with her sisters. She had always told me that she had good sisters. They helped each other out. You see my aunts were against my mom and dad getting married. They probably think my dad wasn't good enough for my mom. They weren't wrong. They are good sisters. They watched out for my mom. Even though my mom still rebelled in the end--married and had all of us--they speak honest words.
When I think of my aunts family, I feel sad. They are good person. Their whole family was so nice to us whenever we visit. I heard uncle loves aunty very much. He cares for her very well in the hospital. What I am sad about is the fact that they are going to be missing someone in the family now. Why does bad thing happen to good people? It just that they have to live with this for the rest of their lives.
I hope mommy won't be sad for so long. It's so sad that she'll not be able to see her sister anymore. I think it's very sad when people say goodbye. I don't like saying goodbye. In any case. I really don't.
Thursday, 8 January 2015
Wednesday, 7 January 2015
On the sixth day of 2015, I feel like I need an energy drink
It is day 6 of 2015. Things are getting a little bit more complicated. As you can see I am writing a bit later every day. There are still a lot more preparation to be done.
You know what I enjoyed doing the most? Designing. Graphic designing. I tend to spend a long time doing things like that and I didn't mind. But I wonder how I can switch route now.
What is going to come about 2015? I couldn't even guess.
You know what I enjoyed doing the most? Designing. Graphic designing. I tend to spend a long time doing things like that and I didn't mind. But I wonder how I can switch route now.
What is going to come about 2015? I couldn't even guess.
Tuesday, 6 January 2015
Crazy start to a new year
HI
So I've got a little held up today.
I've finally finished summarizing our meeting from Wednesday. Man, I need to start getting paid for this. It's too much time invested. If I don't get paid financially, please bless the people I care about.
Anyways, today I put a hault on my new year resolution planning because I am now officially stuck. I can't make the amount I intend to make in a month. I am really considering switching route. Tutoring is just too unpredictable and stressful. When you hit holiday, everyone is gone, so you end up with no income. I am trying to think of something that I don't mind doing for a long time--planning, designing, redecorating. Thing is everything requires credentials. I think Tina is right. She has been right for a while now, but I ignored her. She said I may have to switch direction; try a different path. No more struggling, I think I am just going to do it.
You know, I try to focus on something else so I don't end up doing the wrong thing, but I had hoped otherwise. But now I need to be even careful now because things may be spiraling somewhere unpredictable. Oh well. Time will pass. Feeling will too. Eventually.
So I've got a little held up today.
I've finally finished summarizing our meeting from Wednesday. Man, I need to start getting paid for this. It's too much time invested. If I don't get paid financially, please bless the people I care about.
Anyways, today I put a hault on my new year resolution planning because I am now officially stuck. I can't make the amount I intend to make in a month. I am really considering switching route. Tutoring is just too unpredictable and stressful. When you hit holiday, everyone is gone, so you end up with no income. I am trying to think of something that I don't mind doing for a long time--planning, designing, redecorating. Thing is everything requires credentials. I think Tina is right. She has been right for a while now, but I ignored her. She said I may have to switch direction; try a different path. No more struggling, I think I am just going to do it.
You know, I try to focus on something else so I don't end up doing the wrong thing, but I had hoped otherwise. But now I need to be even careful now because things may be spiraling somewhere unpredictable. Oh well. Time will pass. Feeling will too. Eventually.
Sunday, 4 January 2015
its dark now but the sun will come out tomorrow
Tis the fourth day of 2015 and the first wave has started.
We finally head home after a long day in church. We were discussing the coming year with such excitement and anticipations. Then the moment we stepped into the door, the sparks ignite. Mom and Dad throwing darts every where. There is no safe covering. We were all wounded. Seems like one of us is going to have to sacrifice. Not my sister, she's too fragile. I might have to choose between worship band and cell group leader.
I really wish everyone can be happy, but it seems like happiness is complicated to a lot of people. Personally, I don't understand. With every challenge, there's bound to be a way out. There has to be something you can do to ease the situation. Doesn't it start with your mindset? Well, it makes me sad when I see you sad. So lighten up, "the sun will come out tomorrow."
We finally head home after a long day in church. We were discussing the coming year with such excitement and anticipations. Then the moment we stepped into the door, the sparks ignite. Mom and Dad throwing darts every where. There is no safe covering. We were all wounded. Seems like one of us is going to have to sacrifice. Not my sister, she's too fragile. I might have to choose between worship band and cell group leader.
I really wish everyone can be happy, but it seems like happiness is complicated to a lot of people. Personally, I don't understand. With every challenge, there's bound to be a way out. There has to be something you can do to ease the situation. Doesn't it start with your mindset? Well, it makes me sad when I see you sad. So lighten up, "the sun will come out tomorrow."
Saturday, 3 January 2015
New Year Resolution Part II
Today I went down to the states. Shopping time! I didn't end up getting a lot of things. In fact I only got two pairs of shoes. For those two pairs of "Converse" sneaker, I'd guilt trip myself for the entire return trip. Luckily, my mother approved of my bargain.
New Year Resolution Part II:
3. Read 12 books in a year.
As an English tutor, I'd cut myself too much slack for not reading. I must set an example for all to follow.
4. Learn 12 songs in a year on guitar.
That's right! I bought my own guitar! Whoo! You know what? That wish I made last year on my birthday, it just might come true. As of this moment I know how to play one song--"Anchor" by Bethel.
I have a series of DIY projects I'd like to do, which I will list out in details afterwards.
New Year Resolution Part II:
3. Read 12 books in a year.
As an English tutor, I'd cut myself too much slack for not reading. I must set an example for all to follow.
4. Learn 12 songs in a year on guitar.
That's right! I bought my own guitar! Whoo! You know what? That wish I made last year on my birthday, it just might come true. As of this moment I know how to play one song--"Anchor" by Bethel.
I have a series of DIY projects I'd like to do, which I will list out in details afterwards.
Friday, 2 January 2015
New Year Resolution Part III
There is one thing I fear about blogging. It is the same with any source of information lingering in cyberspace. What if someone finds me? What if someone stalk me? Hey! This is legit fear. Okay?!
New Year Resolution Part I:
1. Pay off student loan by September.
Eight month. $20,000. $2,500/month.
Looks like I am going to be living at home for awhile.
2. Send Mother back to Taiwan in December.
Mother sacrificed a lot to be married into this family. Everybody deserves a break no matter how responsible they felt towards their family. Thanks to the recent opportunity, we know know that it is possible to give Mother a holiday. I would like to keep this up--emergency or no emergency. She must go back to visit grandmother more often.
As much as I like to save the entire world and make everyone happy; that is by no doubt, impossible to achieve. Still, I like to do whatever I can.
Sometimes when I look at people, they are not bound by time or circumstance, they are just human. They want to be happy. Little do I know if people's "LOL" are legit, but I still like to see them smile and laugh. I raised an eyebrow to those who laugh at my intention and call me naive. People need to return to the basis of humanity--positivity, happiness, and motivation. My ultimate goal is to instill purpose into everyday living, to create something that is timeless and colorful.
New Year Resolution Part I:
1. Pay off student loan by September.
Eight month. $20,000. $2,500/month.
Looks like I am going to be living at home for awhile.
2. Send Mother back to Taiwan in December.
Mother sacrificed a lot to be married into this family. Everybody deserves a break no matter how responsible they felt towards their family. Thanks to the recent opportunity, we know know that it is possible to give Mother a holiday. I would like to keep this up--emergency or no emergency. She must go back to visit grandmother more often.
As much as I like to save the entire world and make everyone happy; that is by no doubt, impossible to achieve. Still, I like to do whatever I can.
Sometimes when I look at people, they are not bound by time or circumstance, they are just human. They want to be happy. Little do I know if people's "LOL" are legit, but I still like to see them smile and laugh. I raised an eyebrow to those who laugh at my intention and call me naive. People need to return to the basis of humanity--positivity, happiness, and motivation. My ultimate goal is to instill purpose into everyday living, to create something that is timeless and colorful.
here's to a new year
hello
I'm back this year with a brand new resolution
1. Write a post everyday
I think it is a good habit to write in your journal everyday. I wish to be true to myself everytime I write and I wish to write with style. I wish one would read and laugh and cry with my success and failure. I will learn lots this year and I will record it all here.
here's to a new year
happy 2015
I'm back this year with a brand new resolution
1. Write a post everyday
I think it is a good habit to write in your journal everyday. I wish to be true to myself everytime I write and I wish to write with style. I wish one would read and laugh and cry with my success and failure. I will learn lots this year and I will record it all here.
here's to a new year
happy 2015
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