lazy day

Today is the kind of days when you just want to go to bed right away. It was a really exhausting day. Possibly due to continuous tutoring and not being able to have a dinner break. It would be nice if I can chat randomly with someone I really like to talk to, but I actually don't have anything important or interesting to say. So I held back from talking. I am going to continuous to read Malcolm Gladwell's "The Tipping Point". I bought this book because I need a legit reason to visit Chapter one day. I heard it was a great book. Maybe I'll write a review on the book afterward.

kids and their big mansion

Today, I went to my new student's house. It was a big house but she only lives with her mom. Between what she says, I get the feeling that the father is not of a strong presence in the house. There are many families like them in Canada where the father is working in Asia but the mother stays with the child in Canada. It's become quite a norm. Question is why do they need to buy such a big mansion for just two people?

expire dates on relationships

Is there an expire date on every relationship?
Let us explore, shall we?

Friendship
I had friends from elementary who still kept in contact with me. We also went to the same highschool. So, we had known each other for the umpteenth years. Are we close? We've known each other's reputations in elementary and secondary. Those reputations are hard to rid of. Not everyone is adaptable to change. Sometimes your change in appearance or personality would set someone back from keeping in contact. So does friendship have an expire date? I think it depends on the length and the quality of time of your friendship. One should update their change gradually and consistently to prevent unnecessary "culture shock" at times of reunion.

Romantic Relationship
Ideally, one should seek to know more about the other as time progress. I wonder if there is a time when one would decide that he/she had known too much? I certainly hope not. There is just too many sides to a person. A person should not be static but a dynamic character. So never pin-point one down to be of a flat character. Relationship, I think, would eventually reach a plateau. But this plateau should not lead to "falling action". There are so many adventures in the world. One could always find something new to discover about oneself. Ideally, a romantic relationship should not have an expire date.

Family
Out of all the relationships, family should be the most reliable. After all, you cannot get rid of your siblings or parents much like your friends or your partners. I guess by being blood related, you are bound for an eternity.

So, my conclusion is that to have a lasting relationship of any sort. You must treat your love one like family. Family gives somewhat unconditionally. Family speaks honestly. Family accepts always. Family never gives up on one another. Family bothers one another. Family annoys the crap put of one another. But in the end, family always sticks together. Family is not afraid of separation. Family has no expire dates.

the same snowflake as every else's

Back in grade 11, I volunteered to teach a class of grade 3 on how to make snowflake. I was really proud of myself because I was recommended and selected by my highschool teacher.

There I was, teaching grade 3 to cut straight lines and bending the paper so it forms beautiful curves. Almost everyone got it, except for this one kid. Instead of bending the paper, he folds it. He was extremely upset. His snowflakes doesn't look like anyone else's. It was devastating to him. With my eyes opened as wide as I could, I exclaimed, "You've managed to make the most special and unique snowflake."

I wish I could have told you that my brilliant remake stopped the boy from being upset, but it didn't. He kept crying because he felt like a failure, simply because his snowflake is like no one else's.

Since when did we begin to suppress the uniqueness of a child?

Since when did we start to emphasize the importance of being the same as everyone else?

Since when is being "me" not enough?

why are people late?

This is my analysis on late people. People who also arrive just after the bell rang. They are never early nor ever on time.
I have full access to the mind of an habitual late person--that is "me".

Why am I late?
I blame my optimism.
Remember when people used to ask, "What do you see? Half empty or half full?"
Well, my answer has always been "full". "The glass is half full." No doubt about it.
That is exactly the same reasoning behind my lateness. I see time as "half full". "I still have plenty of time left. Let me use the time I have to perfect the thing I am working on right now."
I don't think that's a bad way to look at things. I don't mean to be late on purpose. I simply see time as sufficient and never lacking.
I blame my optimism.

What I should have been taught years ago is to see the glass as half empty, so I will panic like I am always running out of time.

i mean what i say

I think I really am a nice person.
I am really sincere.
I think it's important.

I just want use this post to talk to someone.
I wanted to sit here because I like sitting here.
I like sitting here and I like talking to you.
legit. sincere.
I really don't have any second motive.
I mean what motive could I possibly have.
I do miss your presence though.
I miss your worship too.
Will it ever come back?
I worry sometimes.
But I tell myself to not worry.

I sincerely wish you are happy.
Even if that means you have to leave and that I will lost all ways of contacting you.
Please live with that sincere smile I used to see on your face.
I wish mean people would disappear and people will make you smile.

That's all.
The end.

heartbreak

Oh dear. My brother is going crazy. He is going through a heartbreak. The pain on his face.

Dear Jesus
I don't know how to help him, but you do. You know I pray for him from time to time. He is growing up so fast. His value is so practical. I know whichever way he took, you'll lead him in the right path.

Dear Jesus
I also pray for myself because I want to continue to love and continue to give without feeling like I must give up because I am hurting too much. I don't want to live in defense and in fear.

Amen