note to self: rule of texting

This is no good. I cant sleep again because I am so excited for tomorrow. Note to self: dont be texting past 11.
Should I read my Bible? It helps sometimes. That may sound horrible but I don't think God will mind me reading His words this late.

The next morning... Couldn't get up because I don't know how to start the day. It is a weird feeling.

future spouse law 1

Hello world
It's random talk time.
What do I look for in my future spouse?
Judging by how I am sitting in bed while my stomach rumble, I am going to say a husband that cook for me in the middle of the night. Or someone who would prepare bento for me. Or someone who is great with cooking. I need food to look good and I need someone who would volunteering clean up the table and do the dishes. I'll help out too. From time to time. Whahahaha

update

When you are all bones and you laid up against a tatami bed, you are bound to be in pain.
With that said, I am happy to report on my status. I am healthy. Yesterday, I have managed to finish everything on my todo list, which is definitely a first. Today is another list of things todo. I hope I make you proud Father. I hope I make you proud.

i like to start afresh thank you

dearly beloved
I'm gonna do it
I am going to give it all up for something brand new.
resettle the scoreboard.
if everyone is trapped by the past memory then lets remake history.
what would I do if you are a stranger to me
I would be nice to you because I'm a super nice person
you might not like me as much because there is no past stories to back me up.
but for the change I've gone through and the change that you have gone through.
lets reestablish whatever relationship we are capable of now
may it be acquaintances or pen pal or hi friends.
lets give it a try.

thoughts tonight

miss singing together
am I being too selfish here

love

Dearest daughter
You took a chance with what you've heard and you have ran with it. You did well. It's difficult isn't it? Love. But let me tell you that it is the simplest and the most natural thing to love. It is who I am. It doesn't matter if I was hurt by your response. I am still love. It is who I am. I am love.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand it's own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and ensures through every circumstance.

Doing well

It was going so well as I raced through the list of things to do today; but then I hit a stumbling block. I began to fear that if A leaves, then B would leave. I don't want to lose connection with B. Although, A is precious too, but B is impulsive. A would come back from time to time, but B probably would not. And why is B flirting with A.

Am I hopeless?

Oh God.

You know how Jacob has an "imprint" on Isabelle in Twlight. Although the funniest comparison, but how else am I suppose to understand this phenomenon.

But you know what? The trick is to sing.
I really like singing. It gives me good vibe.

I used to be really against secular music, but now I do think there are such thing as good music outside of the usual Christian genre. Not all music has to be sappy and emo. Music can be so uplifting. Personally, I'd go for the Disney songs.

Today was okay.
Thank God.