At this moment

Why am I invisible
Why is time ticking away
Why am I feverish
Why do I feel like I am about to die

I feel so bad, but I can't do nothing about it
Nothing

loneliness

The recent event of Amanda Todd is like a mirror held up against the society, demanding the people to look at its reflection. What is going on in the world? ..........Loneliness..........
Within her video, she wrote, "everyone need someone... I need someone." Indeed everyone needs someone, that's why everyone is going around picking without much of a hesitation. But life is gaining on you, pushing you around, it is even more important to choose wisely.

"God places the lonely in families; he set the prisoners free and gives them joy."

to be continue.

Remind me of the time

Remind me of the time when you first rescued me,

When I first recognized your holiness,

And I first realized my insignificance.

On this land I choose to stand,

For your glory, for your name.

Somewhere along the way, I lost the joy.

The reason behind my fight to stand.

Restore in me the joy of your salvation;

Remind me of the time when you first rescue me.

”Restore in me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you”

”Then I will teach your ways to rebels, and they will return to you.”

(Psalm 51: 12-13)

Smile

I don't care what you say or what you think. I know I definitely shine. 

I was in such a cheerful mood when I jumped onto the bus. Almost instantly, I felt a glance from the corner of my eyes. I turned to my right and I saw this girl with the brightest smile glancing at me. I politely smiled back and sit down. I do not know this girl, so why did she smile at me with such intensity. When the bus finally arrived at Lougheed station, the girl hopped off, smiled at the bus driver and said " God bless you". Then, I realized, " Oh, she's a Christian." 

That reminds me of another time.
This classmate of mine told me I give off a special vibe of cheerfulness. When we were randomly chatting, I told her I goes to church on the weekend. "No wonder," she exclaimed.

I don't think I have a shiny appearance or a shiny personality. I think I am normal sometimes, but most of the times, I think I am "glowing". I mean there are times when I felt like I am covered in coal dust. But the next day, when the sun's shining and the music's playing, I just felt like there is so much hope.

I woke up today telling myself. I have no control over anyone's life other than my own. Or not even my own.  

He does though. I know so.^^