How can this flood of negativity just overwhelm me in a matter of seconds?
I really should stand and fight it, but I think I just stood there--motionless.
What's wrong with me?
It's almost like I wanted to prove that I am worth something, so I wanted to give up and see what will come about.
What a rebellious child.
I guess I'll change my mind about giving up once I am done this blog.
But must I go through this every time.
Sorry, God.
But I absolutely can't give reason for my insanity.
That desperation inside of me is way too strong.
I want to see something come about.
Right now.
But I must deal with people and learn first.
Sorry, God.
But you do realize that desire is going to ridicule me in front of people.
And I cannot provide them with an explanation.
Is there something I should be learning here?
Other than the sound of "you are going about it wrong"?
What should I be listening to?
Too broken.
Can you give me a song?
I want a song.
It's fine if it's just to myself.
Can you sing to me?
