what i do when i cant sleep

for the first time in forever, I involuntary can't sleep
for the first time in forever, my brain won't stop thinking and my heart wont stop reacting
when will this end
nobody knows

Clear

I kept hoping someone is listening to me
is watching over me
is keeping an eye on me
is still looking up to me

This just about summed it all up.
My feeling atm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgSmQdTJFIM

Diary 110214

I don't care.

I don't care.

I don't care.

Of course I do.

But I don't.

But I do.

Damn it.