What I wish for myself.

I need to refocus again. So this topic is called...what I wish for myself:

I wish I could make use of my gym pass before it expires in August. I wish to go two times a week as starter.
I wish I could plan an awesome fun day for the kids on Tuesday. It will be the last day before movie day.
I wish I could do Duolingo everyday.
I wish I could limit my screen time to two hours/day.
I wish I could fulfill some promises I made, such as partnering with Myra and making summer events plans.
I wish I could the girls once a week and talk to my leader once a week.
I wish I could practice for band before Friday.

Prayer for the Day 52517

It's been long and hard these past days, but today I am starting anew again. By the strength of God, I wish I can see things in a different light today. I am a teacher. These are the students. They should respect me as I should respect them. I pray that God would teach me to recognize their potential and to be able to push them to do better. I don't want to be a mean teacher. I don't want to be unreasonable. But I am okay with being not liked. They have preferences. We all do. In terms of whether I did my best, it is more than what I see in front of me. What's inside of me is also important? In order for me to see beauty in others, I want to see the beauty in myself too. I am precious and I am trying my best. Not by words, but by action--may God be my witness. But I am doing even more today. I am giving the authority to God to break me and to humble me. The lesson for me this season is to humble. To remain a servant, while gaining my confidence. So help me God.

Finding my voice again

The scariest thing on Earth is to have no voice. Since I decided to keep it all in--all my thoughts--nothing comes out anymore. Before I used to have a lot to say. I want to share about everything, because I thought someone would be interested. It's all kept inside of me now. Scattered bits and pieces. I don't have much to say about church anymore. I like to express myself. I like to mention how much I miss the past,  but there's always a hindrance. I am teaching myself to speak again. Then perhaps, I can find my words back.